lonely crowded mind, captain!

My eyes burn as the hot tears fall

No sound escapes my pressed lips

As I sit in the deep, and the dark letting my depression devour me

and wrap its chilling arms around me

as its hard grip tightens around my heart

draining the last ounce of light

I have I don't want this!  Why am I still here?

I don't want to remain in this cold, stark, painful place

alone

I feel a spark inside as I break the grip he has on me

and look down at myself

Watching as the light inside slowly rekindles itself

feeling the tears dry up on my face

leaving no trace

as I pull myself together and prepare to leave here

Um, I guess this poem has nihilistic themes... that may offend.

( ... )

The Neighbor

'Let's go next door'
but the Neighbor is looking over the hedges
August is the cruelest month
and when he sings the blues
he sings it to his dog
Maybe I should go round
'You have a nice voice, want to dance?'
but his catch phrase isn't that interesting
If I knew his name
Maybe I would drop by
and leave a note
his fence dips low, just enough to put my head off
Is that him behind the jasmine?
looking awkward
searching for an answer
to some question
singing a love song
that has no end
It just dribbles off his tongue
and falls flat
'Pick up that tempo'
Maybe there will time later
I think that is him now
knocking on my door
a cigarette falling off his lips
I don't think I will answer
cause when I hear him singing
I know he loves himself

When your heart races and your mind is rambling

You feel nervous and fear makes you anticipate the moment when your hands meet & the First Glance

Patience is a battle to contain. The calming of it seems impossible.

But the waiting helps redeem that special moment. The Appearance between you & me.

How can i wait to see you? How can i get my heart, body and mind to cooperate with your schedule?

I understand, But it's a task to get everything to understand as well

Patience is what i am trying to teach myself.

Patience is the key to Success, I guess that is why it is so hard to compose...

The Night before is the hardest.

The days before were easier because i had a plan, I could create plans.

Now the plans are gone and everything seems to be corrupt.

Restless and not about to sleep, I am watching the time hoping it passes like the wind.

Laying there trying to make myself rest , trying to restrain my hyper-nervousness to get ready for the big day me and you finally reunite.

The time is almost here and i am looking in the mirror re-checking myself. My fear has now turned into Adrenaline and i am ready to face this moment.

I wasn't late But beginning to hear my heart beating in my ears

Confident and cool when he approached me , My heart and mind was finally at ease when he touched me

Walking back to his place hand and hand I was proud. Proud of the way things turned out proud of the way i composed myself.

And after wondering and wondering what that initial moment would be like it was the Patience that made his touch even more special and even more worthy.

As the Sun this morning rose, Mother woke:
Her thoughtflowers reverently praised Him, while
Her treefingers danced delightfully
To the songs of love-birds in play.

The wind she helped comb Mother's lush hair,
And on it planted pretty pearldewdrops
Then, effortlessly, swiftly,
Laced it with browngreen leafy bows.

As she puffed her face with scents of Spring
The earthworms uncreased her earthy skin.
When all ready, she blushed warmly, and
Spun around shyly to half-hide from Him her beauty.

As the Sun this morning rose, Man woke:
In grumbling groans set off to work.

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there is no world
no universe

there is only 
the one room
with only 
the one window
and the one set of drapes
and the one breeze
blowing across your face

there are no memories
just the sense 
that everything already happened
and you missed it

you were in the bathtub
soaking in fear

you forgot to rejoice
you had no memory
you had only the want

you know this
but remember

the want always wants

and when you can no longer serve the want

you'll be left alone by want
in the one room
with the one window
and the one breeze
with no memories
just a sense 
that everything already happened
and you missed it

ahead of you
the mountain looms larger
and this is cause for alarm
and behind you 
the echoes of laughter 
the warmth of a kiss upon your cheek
and this is cause for sadness

and yet
neither reach out far enough 
to touch you
and though they heckle from the sidelines
and intimidate with their cackles
they know their own limitations

the great fear 
of tomorrow 
and of yesterday 
is that you will realize 
in this moment
neither can touch you

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You Are To Me

Like a drumbeat
Clear and loud
Through miles of fog and lots of sound
Like a lightbulb
Turning on:
Sharp relief from shadows

Caught between ending and starting
Days follow nights follow days
Moving and tumbling and reeling
Spinning circles inside a maze

Like a bird's wings
Opening up
To soar; to fall;
To hope for more
Like a motor's starting purr
A goodbye, a return, a chance
That's what you are to me

You're the sun out on the horizon
Rising or sinking, no one can say
You're the moon, orbiting an orbiting globe
And never seen in the day

You're like curry
Spicy and warm
Familiar and foreign
At once
And you're like a singer's
Encore song
The cherry on the whipped cream

We're caught between ending and starting
Our days follow nights follow days
We're moving and tumbling and reeling
Spinning circles inside out maze

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There today no more than here yesterday:
Hearts who rush on express lanes, so to stay
Together - so little, more like apart,
more like least understanding of whose heart.

Whose heart we take whose heart that is offered,
If hearts know not to own? To whom owing
Promises of love, or unrequited
Dreams: No more, no less than hollow shells' songs.

Songs of mere promises, more sweetly sung
To empty ears? Eyes see not what is heard
By hearts that beat quick in vacuumed spaces:
Unheard, less than a love whispered in sleep.

In sleep, all men die and begin to dream
Of things they understand least; most by hearts,
Of love and songs sung for other hearts lived
There today no more than here yesterday.

Equal night; balance of Earth

Our symmetry is nature
the sweet color of spring, that winter brings

Magnetic; together by force

Your virtue is my flaw
your failing is my tact, opposites attract

Oceans merge into breathing rivers;
A new life is born

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I hung my heart upon a string
hung my head and watched it swing
morbidly
I took it down
lifeless
and thus useful now

--Will I Dare Look In His Eyes?--
will I raise my gaze to meet the rays
ebbing from his ocean eyes?
will I meet the warmth
that pierces the storm
crashing on these craggy lies?
will I
do I
dare meet his eyes?
stand staring at another life?
the person that I almost was
before courage broke the jungle's laws?

Sometimes I think it's coming back,
maybe it never left i'm under attack.
Can't defend myself 'cos the opposition is within my skin,
this losing battle can I ever win?
deep fighting and destroying,
I get an urge to hurt myself and make myself sickly thin,
howcome I deal with things so different?
Positivity keeps me alive,
the strength knowing that I survived,
I did it once i'll do it again,
I'm gonna beat myself in the end.
Insecurity self doubt secrets i'll never tell and worry start to attack,
but my courage is fighting back.
To try be happy within myself i'll do everything,
'cos I know i'm worth loving.
I am strong and I am weak,
skipping meals & loosing sleep,
binging out and sleeping in,
diet diet then pig out,
people wander what its all about,
they can think what they want they'l never know why i'm proud of who I am,
then constantly second guessing questioning and hating everything I am,
One step forward and one step back,
between myself just creating a bigger gap..
So far from who I used to be,
sometimes I think i'm close secretly
I don't know how but i'm going to try,
am I being true to myself... the best thing is to never lie,
in a way I am in a way I wanna die.
i'm happy i'm sad, i'm gutted i'm glad,
this is the most stable i've ever been,
soon i'll stop fighting the person within.

Putting faith in humanity. . .
is like placing a rifle in your enemy's icy, hard hands

Letting them inside, sharing your secrets. . .
is like baiting them to pull the trigger

Letting down your guard and allowing them full access to the deep places of your mind unknown to man. . .

That's like ripping the rifle from their hands

pressing the barrel to your head

and pulling the trigger. . .

It's simply suicide.

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